A Thought About AA

I can recall, very vividly, my uncle screaming at me, “Don’t eat my fucking Lucky Charms.” It was the only food he could stomach while wasting away on my grandmother’s couch, dying from cirrhosis of the liver.  My dad was an alcoholic, so was my grandfather and many others. All these men attended AA and followed the 12 step program. Here’s where I have the problem, a theistic program, pushes someone who is already down into thinking they just can’t it without god–I’m a firm believer in the power of one’s self. I really hate that people are duped into believing some distant invisible being is bestowing them some magical power to quit the bottle, or anything, for that matter. You put in the time. You put in the effort. You did it. Why give credit to something else? Doesn’t that morally release you from responsibility if you fall off the wagon, “God took away my strength!” God is unnecessary. I used to think my prayers and faith carried me day to day, but it wasn’t. I no longer write off my personal choices to the whims of a silent god. And it should go without saying, ancient mysticism isn’t a cure for a serious addiction.

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9 thoughts on “A Thought About AA

  1. What I don’t understand is how a person can say they are an alcoholic for the rest of their life, even though they don’t drink anymore. For example, if a 50 year old quit drinking at 25, he or she has not been drinking for half their life and most of their adult life, but they might still refer to themselves as an alcoholic. It may help some people, but I think at that point it’s safe to say you aren’t an alcoholic anymore.

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    1. I’ve thought about this too, it confused me but, the thinking surrounding it is more of a reminder to not fall back into old habits. I’m addicted to nicotine, and I know that when I do eventually quit, I’ll probably crave the substance on and off for a great deal of my life. I’m not going to go around telling everyone I’m addict, but I’d rather live with the warning than the addiction!

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  2. Nicely shared 🙂 short and sweet. You mention those who recover and those who don’t. For me, AA was a stepping stone. I am empowered now that I have discovered how to live without AA and without ‘degenerate behavior’. AA was quite a small box. More so, I hear over and over, AA is not a church. ‘Bull dog poop” I am not happy about the misrepresentation of the organization.

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    1. A church no. I understand that it’s a means to an end, and if a belief in a god of some sort helps you overcome sickness and death, then so be it. For such is better than living a sickly life and dying young. But I shun any god who shucks personal responsibility and calls the human will “sin”, for those things are all we have.

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  3. Awesome. I will use this line: “….it’s my life. I lived it and I embrace it. I don’t write off my personal choices to the whims of a silent god.”

    I believe as you do for the most part. I can’t imagine having said that any better.

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